January 2012
the world: hey man we've got some really serious problems like global warming and mass economic failure and riots and genocide and aids and cancer and your healthcare system is shit so maybe we should get to work
US government: sit down I have to stop people from sharing things online
US government: also pizza is vegetables
in twelve hours my exams will finally be over. i hate what exams to do me- i’ve worked this year and i know i probably wouldn’t fail, but it doesn’t stop me getting ill because i get so worked up about them. it’s so frustrating.
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i feel horrific. so huge, and disgusting. i forgot what it was like to hate my reflection to the extent of wanting to die every time i see it. i have my last exam and ugh, i’m going to london tomorrow and i don’t want to feel horrific all the time.
i know it isn’t healthy but i need to fast for the rest of the day, i need to be HAPPY in london and actually fucking enjoy myself,...
“I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and...”
– Mary Oliver (via elige)
“Grant yourself a moment of peace, and you will understand how foolishly you have...”
– Ancient Chinese proverb (via elige)
“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not...”
– Azar Nafisi (via elige)
“And, if you believe, in very simple terms, that people mean you well, and will...”
– Jane Roberts (via elige)
YAY LAPTOP IS WORKING AGAIN. THANK FUCK.
I spilt juice ALL over my laptop and now it won’t turn on.. luckily Freddie’s is still here, but STILL. I don’t know what to do :/
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the vegan-project is proving a lot harder than I thought it would. I don’t know if that’s because it’s hard for everyone, or if it’s especially hard because I’m in recovery from an eating disorder; and bulimia has binging etc., so sometimes I’ve eaten meat/etc. unintentionally. Anyone got any suggestions?
“I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe...”
– John Lennon (via scorchingwildfire)
“Understanding unity helps to solve humanity’s biggest challenges. There is no...”
– Za Rinpoche (via elige)
“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it...”
– Buddha (via elige)
“I will not be written about in textbooks or studied in classes
Nothing large...”
– (via her0inchic)
“And they are right, I think.
We all hate home
And having to be there:
I...”
– Poetry of Departures - Philip Larkin (via polkakadot)
“Today, in a huge victory for women’s health, Health and Human Services Secretary...”
– Obama Administration Approves Rule That Guarantees Near-Universal Contraceptive Coverage | ThinkProgress
YAY!
(via becauseiamawoman)
“Do you know what you are? You are a manuscript of a divine letter. You are a...”
– Rumi (via elige)
“I will remember the kisses, our lips raw with love,
and how you gave me...”
– Charles Bukowski (via andwhisper)
“I’ve never been lonely. I’ve been in a room — I’ve felt suicidal. I’ve been...”
– Charles Bukowski (via cityyandcolour)
we pretty much broke up last night- hours of crying, and i have an exam in an hour. great.
i’m so fucked for this exam tomorrow. and i’ve gone past the point of caring.
“I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and...”
– Charles Bukowski (via leahshiloh)
indigopyrithea:
Do not stand at my grave and forever weep. I am not there; I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn’s rain. When you awaken in the morning’s hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and...
“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The...”
– Robin Williams (via modernhepburn)
My plan for today:
- go and find something for breakfast. green tea and cranberry juice is not enough, even if your stomach is whooping in glee because it’s not hungry. - go to see Sylvia. I’m actually really looking forward to this, I’ve missed her a lot. and I’ve got progressively worse in not seeing her. and things with Freddie are strained. and my anxiety is out of...
xlauradallas asked: Sounds like a confusing situation to be in :( I'll reply tomorrow because I can't concentrate on writing anything at the moment and my head hurts. You'll only get rubbish written if I do try, ha. I'm sure you know the feeling. Night xx
xlauradallas asked: Ah no way, that's disappointing to hear. Doing a conversion into medicine will be very hard work and very competitive (from what I hear, one of my friends at uni wants to do it), but something you should seriously look into. Wouldn't a career in psych interest you? I suppose that's helping people too. Though, again, extremely competitive. I think for me university is what I...
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compleeeetely! my course isn’t at all what I expected it to be.. it’s nowhere near as good, unfortunately. I thought about applying through UCAS to start second year somewhere else, but in terms of my health and stuff, it isn’t really a viable option right now :( which is shit. & essentially all I’ve wanted to do is help, so it seems like medicine/nursing/etc. is the...
So if I ever wanted to do graduate entry medicine, I’d have to do Chemistry & Biology A Level first. Or do a degree in Nursing. 1 year/3 years. Ugh.
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feeling a bit calmer after a cigarette. going to do some work and then spend the evening with emily and ice cream.
“Nowadays, a candidate must believe not just some but all of the following...”
– American politics: The right Republican | The Economist
H/T my Twitter feed: @JohnWDean (former Nixon White House counsel, now a contributing commentator to Current TV’s Countdown with Keith Olbermann, and author and lecturer. A guy very much worth following).
(via timekiller-s)
“If we wait until we’re ready, we’ll be waiting for the rest of our lives.”
– Lemony Snicket (via floralnymph)
looks like I might actually be living on my own next year. greaaaat.
okay, detox so did not work. I just made a huge vat of pasta.
but apart from cigarettes.
I need to detox today- not only because I’ve put on weight, but because my diet disgusts me right now. Green tea, water, maybe I’ll make some vegetable drinks.
Only good things allowed in.
My anxiety is out of control, but I am taking it back.
Daily Murf: [Trigger warning for rape] To all... →
I get it—you’re a decent guy. I can even believe it. You’ve never raped anybody. You would NEVER rape anybody. You’re upset that all these feminists are trying to accuse you of doing something, or connect you to doing something, that, as far as you’re concerned, you’ve never done and would never condone.
And they’ve told you about triggers, and PTSD, and how one in six women is a survivor, and...
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I have exams, and I have appalling concentration. I don’t even know where to start with all of this work. And it doesn’t help that my head is driving me crazy.
i’m becoming a boyfriend-beater. i do nothing but hit people. it disgusts me.